Love, Freedom & Trust
Just like love is only love if it is unconditional, trust is only trust if it is unconditional. It cannot be tied to a specific outcome, or else it is not trust. I cannot say to the Universe: “If you truly love me, I trust you will make me a millionaire, make this or that […]
Pregnancy after miscarriage: How to deal with fear
When I found myself pregnant again after having suffered a miscarriage just a few months earlier, I have been forced to face some very deep fears around loss and suffering. I still remember how in the midst of the 12 hours of contractions that proceeded the first miscarriage I asked my partner how we could […]
What I learned from my miscarriages – Part 2
In July 2017, the ground was pulled under my feet when my embryo(s) got flushed down the toilet at 9.5 weeks of my first pregnancy. Apart from the excruciating physical suffering, it was a tremendous emotional shock, since it came completely out of the blue for me (us). Not even once had I considered the […]
Come Full Circle – Miscarriage Poem
You came to usAs an unexpected giftSecretly and silentlyYou installed yourself in my wombMaking yourself comfortableEven if just for a little while Despite the writings on the wallI did not notice you were thereOr ratherI was not able to see the obviousEven though I suspected at timesBut it seemed impossible to my mindAnd as Goethe […]
What I learned from my miscarriage – Part 1
So many embryos, fetuses and babies never make it into this world – or leave it far too early, be it through stillbirth, sudden child death, miscarriage, or even failed conception (IVF or natural). Even though it happens so frequently, it is a topic not often talked about – especially not in public – and […]