How firm is your frame?
Recently my dance teacher told me to be even more rigid in my “frame” (I prefer to use the word “firm” since for me rigidity is when necessary firmness becomes exaggerated and unbalanced). It came as a surprise, because I thought I had a quite firm frame. I thought I knew how to follow well, […]
Love, Freedom & Trust
Just like love is only love if it is unconditional, trust is only trust if it is unconditional. It cannot be tied to a specific outcome, or else it is not trust. I cannot say to the Universe: “If you truly love me, I trust you will make me a millionaire, make this or that […]
Pregnancy after miscarriage: How to deal with fear
When I found myself pregnant again after having suffered a miscarriage just a few months earlier, I was forced to face some very deep fears around loss and suffering. I still remember how in the midst of the 12 hours of contractions that proceeded the first miscarriage I asked my partner how we could ever […]
What I learned from my miscarriages – Part 2
In July 2017, the ground was pulled under my feet when my embryo(s) got flushed down the toilet at 9.5 weeks of my first pregnancy. Apart from the excruciating physical suffering, it was a tremendous emotional shock, since it came completely out of the blue for me (us). Not even once had I considered the […]
Come Full Circle – Miscarriage Poem
You came to usAs an unexpected giftSecretly and silentlyYou installed yourself in my wombMaking yourself comfortableEven if just for a little while Despite the writings on the wallI did not notice you were thereOr ratherI was not able to see the obviousEven though I suspected at timesBut it seemed impossible to my mindAnd as Goethe […]
What I learned from my miscarriage – Part 1
Let’s get pregnancy loss out of the dark. It’s only when I experienced it myself, that I realized how common it is. What a weird world where we are supposed to hide the joy of our pregnancy for 3 months only to then hide the pain if we do indeed lose it. I say let’s […]